Sunday, August 1, 2010

And so it begins again

Well, home just over 24 hours and already experiencing the thing that links all good mothers around the world together - worry. I can't go into detail, but the concern I have is very serious, much more so than everyday mom concerns.

Can I go back up north? Like, um, NOW?

I was awake until 4:00 this morning from sheer anxiety. I tried everything, relaxation techniques, prayer and meditation. I tried really really really really hard to let it go. "Just release it, Sue" was my mantra. Naah, didn't work. This is just too big - HUGE. I was exhausted and this is not good for me or my health.

Does it ever end? Is there a point in which we no longer worry about our adult children? My mother says no. I know she worries about me and my health issues. Great, she's almost 80. So, I gotta figure this out and find a way to release and live happily in spite of what's going on with my child. Easy to type; hard to do. Any suggestions? We're all in this together, right?